officially closed ^_^

heex...slack another noon...cannot ler...cannot!!! muz study study study!!! sigh

6th aunty, my mum's 6th elder sis, came to see me and my kor...i accompanied her at the later part of the noon =) we went to buy vegetables and fruits...made fruit salad...=) love salad =) this two days got salad eat ler! =) after making salad, we chat....she told me about her work life, daily life...asked me about my studies...ask me to dote kor kor...
she juz left...it has been a long time since we've chat this long...

oh ya, today i totally have appetite to eat ler=) recovered =)
but the pain in my hand is back...man! dunno wad did i do juz now...how come suddenly pain again??? grrr... hate it...

hope your sunny day will come soon =) i wish the best for you...^_^

decided not to go out...stay at home...but dun feel like studying though i know i have to...
miss him so much....

come what may

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I'm loving you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KMz279ae70U

juz came back from school...hahax...can say bye bye to math ler...everybody seems to know at least one sum...i know none..even part of it i oso dunno...i guess i will get zero...hahax...the price i have to pay for not studying...but i really no mood and tired to study yesterday...i would rather study econs and chem...sigh...but nvm...i'll not give up on maths...after all, it was once my fav sub...

clique: when you all going to discovery centre??? and can see roys blog ler, he uploaded the pics ler...pic that we took when he was stuck in the toilet...yup...=)

take care everybody...have a nice day..

we can't see juz the surface of the problem de...sometimes things isn't the way it seems...so i hope we could let the matter rest for now...^_^

this two days haven been out with my clique...went to help out dine's father today...had to apologise, at times i didnt focus, then yue bang yue mang...sorry...
dine's father cooked for us...thankz to him i finally could eat...this few days haven ate much...either one day eat a few bites of bread only or have some finger foods...not that i dun wanna eat...but when i eat, i felt like puking...
but today, i manage to finish 1 bowl of rice! thankz to dine's papa...
when leaving, dine's papa and aunty ask us come more often, dun long time come once...they miss us...we were very touched...
after that went down to H.P...to cut my hair...this is the first time i didnt bother much about my hair while cutting...coz i was sleeping while aunty ellin help me cut...when its done...i was kind of shock...coz i dun recognise myself...i didnt expect to look like that...though dine they all say look almost the same...but i think look so diff la...then when i reach home...my aunty say "SO UGLY! WHY GO CUT like PAUL 2 HILL'S HAIR..." then i haix...i'm not used to it too...haix...forget it...cut ler...there is nth i can do about it...wait till my fringe grow longer lor...the back length still okay la...haix...
missed him so much today...really alot alot alot...until it seems the time passes so slowly...i will wait till that day

today is teachers' day =)
H A P P Y
T E A C H E R S
D A Y...
the performance was great..especially dance and cheer leading...nice!!! very nice!!! =)

actually today happen alot of things la...but i abit erm...i dunno la...
but one things i cant dun say...my clique came to my house today...they say miss my mummy, so long never see her...so they came...and you all know wad happen? ROYSTON WAS STUCK IN THE TOILET!!! coz the door knock spoil...even key oso cant open the door...diaoz... then we call the person come open the door for him....then you know wad he did while waiting for that person to come? there is this little window at the toilet...he open it...then ask us take pic of him stuck in the toilet...still make so many pose...he is damn unbelievable la... so positive...me and my kor really dui him gua mu xiang kan...
how i wish last time, i was like him...so positive... now even i've learn to be...its' too late ler...
[to my clique: sorry my buddies...i really dun feel like going to kbox...i know it's very unbelievable...but ya...i really dun feel like going...school work la! make me no mood...argh...so ya...next time bah...]

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even i I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you


well, nth can describe how i'm feeling now...or maybe, i dunno wad i'm feeling now...i only know wad i want...juz dun feel like talking now...yup...want to sleep now ler...coz sleeping make times moves faster...

the anime pics all very sweet =)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmYJM-XV6FI

你說你好累 已無法再愛上誰
風在山路吹 過往的畫面全都是我不對
細數慚愧 我傷你幾回

2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our good-bye

i will promise you eternity if you promise me to stay...but now it's too late...is it???
to both of us faking a smile isnt easy in school anymore...many couldnt see but i see the pain in your eyes...i'm not sad bcoz of you not talking to me...i'm sad bcoz i dunno wad can i do to help us...sad bcoz i am doin so little yet i know i have to do more...y cant i juz walk up and speak? i wish i didnt need to initiate...i wish all these sad things wouldnt happen...i wish i really can still stay strong...
since in the morning i already xin bu zai yan...as i've said my mind was full of you, though i may be doing other things...today so damn blur...carnival coupon, go around asking ppl where izzit..in the end it was all the while in my bag...then later come econs wkbk...sorry, to let you all search for it for so long...i really dunno wad i'm doin...today during chem lect...i really feel like skipping it... i dun want to be in that lect theatre...

yesterday didnt update...
it was a long day for me...wanted to complete all my works but i couldn't...couldn't concentrate...my mind was full of memories...full of him...every min i had to pull myself back to work...in the end...i onli finish a pathetic econs for the whole entire day...useless me...
the day was long...i was always clinging on to my hp...always checking it...every msg beep were full of empty hopes...till night came =) the wait was worthwhile =)
was lying down..trying to study chinese...my chinese aint good...have difficulty in reading chinese...but still struggled, tried to finish reading "zhe li zhen an jing"...while reading, kor kor came...sat beside me...suddenly he pat my head...like how daddy and mummy used to pat my head to sleep in the past...now kor kor did the same thing to me...well, it seems like a normal "sayang" from kor...but at that very moment, my heart melts, felt so touched that i teared but kor kor didnt know...[coz he was also studying while patting my head...] somehow while he pats my head it gave me a feeling that he was trying to tell me "ger ah, don't be sad...everything will be fine soon...kor kor will always be here for you...even if the sky falls, kor kor will oso support it for you...accompany you through all the obstacles...so don't worry...don't despair...you're not alone...kor here with you" well, maybe i was really thinking too much...but that was how much i needed his care...coz his actions made me feel loved...i really appreciate to have a kor like him...coz i know, though this are juz my imagination thoughts, he will really do so when it is in reality...
yesterday, my day ended off happily...i don't wish to ask for more...juz those msg will do =)

today...
started of my day, having one goal in my mind...open my mouth and speak! but the useless me didn't...i dunno wad am i doing...wad was stopping me??? wad was i afraid??? when isn't the time for me to talk, i can't keep my bloody mouth shut...now when i am suppose to talk, i kept my mouth shut...really useless...wads so difficult about talking??? talking non stop was my daily routine in secondary school...but y not now??? i don't want to be like that...i don't wanna hurt anyone anymore...
today, i was really tired and my stomach really hurts...half way, i really feel like leaving school...thats why after school i went home immediately...can't take it...wanna eat medicine...
can see a major difference in me between early noon and late noon...from an expression-less face to a smiling face...coz that smile of yours, makes a thousand difference...
sigh...i got a bad feeling...somethings gonna happen...haix...
i wish that time would stop at may, 7th may...
shall end here, good bye...